9 days post op

For some reason I've been highly unmotivated to post anything here since my latest surgery. No idea why, all news has been good news! I had my right hip operated on last Tuesday, April 5, so I'm officially a week and 2 days out from surgery today. This time around, my labrum didn't need to be reconstructed - and it required only a repair with 2 (or 3?) anchors, some bone shaving, cartilidge clean-up, and some microfracture, but not in a weight bearning area. This operation has been SO much easier than my left hip in January. I've been off pain killers (except for one before sleeping) pretty much since last Thursday or Friday. I felt like my hip joint muscles were wrecked for only the first day, and was able to actually do a real stride, rather than shuffle my foot along the floor, pretty much by day 2. So, now its just waiting, and being patient. I think I got a bit overly ambitious, thinking that by the time I left Vail I'd be pain free. But, even though I started in a relatively good position, the recovery is still slow as molassas. Gotta give it time. In other good news - the left hip is holding up really well - it hurts here and there, but I'm really pleased and glad for that. It misses its own p.t. though, and it misses riding the bike outside. Soon :) The restrictions and instructions are very similar to last time - 4 hours a day in the CPM machine (3 weeks), as much as possible in the game ready ice machine (2 weeks) and no external rotation or extension for 4 weeks, which means wearing the hip brace and strapping my feet together in foam boots at night (least favorite restriction). I'm on crutches for 4 weeks with 20 pound max weight bearing, and the fifth week its 50%, then i get to wean off of them (hoping that process is easier and faster this time). Right now, i'm in PT twice a day which lasts about 2 hours each time and involves riding the bike with no resistance for 20 minutes, some passive motion, soft tissue work (some not so soft), and some very mild strengthening stuff, followed by game ready icing. I've gone to the pool twice as well - which means 3 pt sessions those days. The rest of the time is spent getting time in on the CPM, reading, eating, sleeping and movies. Very repetitive. It gets old. Once again my parents have been total rockstars. They've both been with me the entire time, cooking, chauffeuring, helping sherpa things here and there. But, they were shocked also by how much less help i needed this time. I think that is a relief, and means they are getting more time to read and relax too. They also have taken advantage of the opportunity of being in the offices of world reknown orthopedic surgeons to have their own aches and pains checked out and my dad may be returning in the not too distant future for his own knee repair. Good stuff. Other than that - I miss home. I'm anxious to be back, to be engaged in life a bit more, and have a little more variety in my day to day! I'm seeing the light at the end of the tunnel big time. In fact, i think its becoming super bright. I just need to make sure i take my time in getting there so I don't trip and fall and make this any longer than it needs to be. Patience. I think the reason I haven't been motivated to post is that its all pretty boring! But boring is good :) Thank you for your well wishes, calls, emails, texts, etc. Adds some light to my day. I am sure that all the good mojo sent my way has a large part in how well this has turned out. Thanks :) xxoo

Turning a Corner

Last weekend i had to take big jump backwards to move forward again. But, its working! Going back onto two crutches helped my hip settle down. The pain subsided and the loose feeling mellowed out. I'm back to alternating between one and two crutches - but I feel i'm close to losing the sticks completely. Yesterday in the pool i did some waist deep walking and felt incredibly different than I had just last week. I could take a full forceful stride without a lot of pain (just a small pain in the hip flexor, which is still weak). I could stand and balance on the one leg. TFL is getting stronger. I know, little things, but huge progress.

I also got back onto my regular road bike (on the trainer) rather than riding the stationary bike. Clipless pedals, bike shorts, my goodness, it feels strange. But so good to sweat. I only rode for under an hour, and if I had a power meter on i'm sure it would be laughable, but I'll take it. I'm hoping the sun will start shining around here and in the next week or so i'll be able to get out on the road and ride a few times before the next surgery.

Speaking of which, the next surgery is just over 3 weeks from now. I'll be driving from Denver to Vail in exactly three weeks. Boy am I ready. As I'm starting to do more, my right hip has started to have the familiar pains in the front, back, side, allover basically. So, any doubts or feelings of "i can just live with it" have left. Its going to be a long wait, but this wait will be sweet, because it will be the last wait. Enough with this year and all of my pieces falling apart.

I have a lot to rebuild in terms of strength. I did a plank yesterday, and I lasted about 10 seconds. I used to do those for minutes, repeats. I'm sore today too. But hey, I'm excited to just be able to do it and not have my hip or my clavicle limiting me. My biggest challenge will be to have patience, and not do too much too soon. Last thing i want is another injury.

3 weeks to surgery, 3 weeks in Vail, probably another 2-3 weeks until i'm where I am right now on the other hip. I'm expecting and hoping that the next surgery won't need a reconstruction and that it will be less difficult. If my timeline is right, that means in less than 10 weeks I'll be on my bike. That seems almost ok!!

2 Steps Backwards

Bad news. Back on 2 crutches and hip is feeling loose. Crappy combo. Its been a rough few days. Walking on one crutch was a stretch - but it was so much more convenient and felt like "progress" so i kept going. Only, it was getting more and more painful, which is not the goal. So, back onto 2 crutches based on the reality check from my PT. If I'm walking like a pirate with a peg leg, either get an eye patch or bring back the second crutch.

This week was also the first week of adding external rotation and extension. I hadn't been allowed to do that for the first 5 weeks in order to let the joint capsule heal up all nice and tight. This was because of the looseness I had been feeling after surgery. So, I'd worn the damn hip brace for 5 weeks. I hadn't taken a full stride for 5 weeks. And had slept in the damn foot boots with my feet strapped together for 5 weeks. All sucky annoying things that I did, thinking it would pay off in the end. Things seemed to be going well. Tightening up. Less and less incidences of looseness. Well, its been 3 days of freeing myself from those restrictions and the looseness is back. Wonderful. Very discouraging.

I have an email in to my dr. people to see what their advice is.

Meantime, icing and advilling and blogging :)

happy saturday folks.
v

Walking is hard

Yesterday was the start of "50% weight bearing". This means that if I'm standing still, i can put even weight on both feet. If I'm walking I need to still use the crutches so that when I step on the operated leg, I only get 50% of my weight. Well, standing is hard, walking is next to impossible. Everything in my hip screams when I try to walk with any sort of normal stride. Its sort of spooky. Get lots of crunching and popping to. None of this really worries me - I guess that says a lot about where I'm at with this mentally. I hope by the end of this week (i.e. 4th week post op), I can at least walk semi comfortably at 50% weighbearing. And, I hope the other hip is easier and faster to recover, because this is pretty slow. Mostly, I hope this hip just ends up healing up all nice and smooth and pain-free - even if it takes its sweet time.

3 Weeks post-op (tomorrow)

We left the cozy security of Vail and Howard Head and have returned to San Francisco - and I'll be going back to work tomorrow. Tomorrow, I also get to start weight bearing 50% weight on my left leg - still with crutches. A week later, I get to say goodbye to them entirely - assuming I can learn to walk with no extension past neutral, otherwise it'll be another week after that. CPM leaves me tomorrow or Wednesday. Already said goodbye to the gameready - which was sad. Unfortunately, some of my other restrictions ahve been lengthened - I'm still required to limit external rotation and extension - and that's been extended from 3 weeks to 5 weeks - to be sure that my joint capsule/hip heals all nice and tight. So, still have the damn bolster and boots at night, and the hip brace for another 2 weeks. It'll go by fast, no worries. Also stil have the calf pumps for another week. So, that should be manageable I suppose. I can bend over and put that stuff on and off myself at night - so its more just annoying than impossible.

Its been a rough transition - leaving a place where I spent most of my days either in PT or on the couch, and had two loving people around me to help me with everything (i can count on one hand the number of meals i prepared during the 2+ weeks we were in Vail). I now have PT 3 times a week - and I only have 30 minutes with my pt at those sessions. I'm thinking about upping it to 5 times a week (prescription says 3-5), but i'll see how this goes. I'm supposed to do constant passive motion for 20 minutes 1 to 2 times a day for the next 8 weeks. So, this gets done 3 times a week in therapy - the rest of the time, i suppose i'll go to the pool to do it, or beg my brother or some other poor soul to do it. Friends beware, I may show up at your houses asking you to move my leg around in circles... it'll be fun!

Janet - pool therapy was awesome. Basically, a bit of aqua jogging with the aqua jogger belt (totally new for me) and some kicking on my back. some mini squats and some side standing leg lifts, and then some walking, forward, backward, side to side. Today I actually swam a little - with a pool bouy between my legs. My upper body is finally going to get some muscle back (after 8 months of a weak/broken collarbone) - crutches and pool should do the trick.

I'm also supposed to ride a bike with no resistance for 30 minutes a day 2 times a day. My road bike on a trainer isn't working unfortunately (not comfy at all and very hard to get onto with my restrictions), so I'm scrambling to find a spin bike somewhere that I can have at home, rather than having to drive to the gym 2 times a day every day.

In between this will be work and catching up on everything that i've missed.

As for how the hip feels. So far so good. Much harder recovery than last time - I think last time I felt great a few days post op, and would have been happy walking less than a week later. This time, I'm only now starting to think that going to 50% weighbearing sounds like a good idea. Hip is still quite tender some days, other days/times it feels pretty good. I think my adductor is working overtime and sometimes just screams at me - as does the graft site. My IT band and everything that connects with it will need a lot of love in the coming weeks. All in all though, I think I have a more realistic idea of the trajectory of recovery. I don't get all cocky and over confident on good days, and I'm more able to take in stride the bad days. I do also feel like my hip is slowly tightening up (which definitely helps me take things more in stride). I don't care if my hip still still hurts - so long as its not falling out of the socket, i'm happy. I'm hoping that the next week of increasing the work the hip has to do won't cause any major flare ups - but I won't be suprised if I'm in for a bit of pain here and there. I'm very excited to get to walk crutch free again soon - its just a pain in the arse.

Next surgery has been pushed back a couple of weeks - and is now scheduled for April 5. I originally was scheduled for exactly 7 weeks after the first surgery, and now it will be 10 weeks. I think that will make it a bit easier on my recovering hip to deal. Counting down the days!

Thank you thank you thank you for everyone who has been there for me through this time - and the past 8-9 months. It means so much. what's important in life has certainly become more clear to me in this process.

I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. I CANNOT wait to be riding my bike one day and think - my hips don't hurt! doesn't seem too far off now.

Groundhog Day

Tonight marks the one week anniversary of my hip surgery. In some ways, the past seven days have flown by. In other ways they have crept so slowly by. Every day I feel a little better. My least favorite thing about the recovery time are the restrictions while I sleep - I despise having to sleep flat on my back with my feet strapped in to the foot bolsters - unable to move. I'm counting down the days til that is no longer required.

Every day is somewhat the same. It starts like this: I wake up in bed, flat on my back, feet strapped to a bolster, calf pumps strapped around my calves, game ready machine strapped around my thigh and hip. Stiff, sore, a little sweaty. (nice, yes). I call out, as nicely as i can "help" - and my mom, who usually hears me on the first or second shout, comes in to undo all of the contraptions. I grab the crutches, hobble to the kitchen, and have coffee and enough food to give a little cushion for the pain killers and all the other medications I'm taking to help my hip. I shower - which is tricky and interesting balancing on one foot - and get dressed in some baggy shorts, slip on vans, a tee shirt, and fleece. Then we head out the door and down the elevator into the car, and drive into vail where I crutch into the Howard Head PT and plop myself onto a bike.

I have PT at Howard Head 2 times a day - usually lasting 90 minutes to two hours each session, along with a 20 minute driver there and back. The PT is great. It consists of about 20 minutes no resistance on an exercise bike. Then, I work with a PT for the next 40 minutes to one hour - doing passive circumduction, some soft tissue massage, and some very mellow exercises to get the muscles firing again. So far, both of the PTs I've worked with specialize in hips and are intimately familiar with what was done inside mine. It is reassuring. I wish I could pack one up and take her home with me.

My parents, who are my everything during this time (cook, chauffeur, nurse, psychologist), wait in the lobby for me - chatting with the other 'regulars', writing emails, doing stitchery and reading. After my PT is over, we head back to the condo, eat and I spend whatever time I have in some combination of the cpm machine, game ready, and calf pumps. Then its back to PT to do it all over again.

Evenings usually involve some reading, a movie and food. Luckily I've had a few visitors to mix it up - which as been lovely. Then its off to bed - where I strap into the game ready machine, the calf pumps, and the bolster, take a few pain pills, and drift off to sleep.

I'm still on pain pills - every 4 hours. This surprises me, since last surgery I was off pain killers about one day post op. I'm also still very limited in movements due to pain and restrictions. Also, a new thing compared to last surgery. Each day seems to get a little easier, and the swelling goes down just a little bit. My hips were about 2x as wide as normal for the first 4 days or so - but they are slowly decreasing in size. Along with the decrease in size, there is a decrease in swelling.

In PT I see lots of other hip patients - at all stages of recovery. It does seem like those who had labral reconstruction have a harder the time first few days than the others. I'm told by the PTs that, in time, this all equalizes and recovery time ends up being about the same.

The first few days after surgery, my biggest concern was that my hip still felt loose. I've talked to the surgeon about this, as well as the fellow, the Surgeon's assistant, both of my PTs and a few other patients (yes, I like to talk when I'm worried). One thing I heard from another patient was the most reassuring thing anyone has said. Apparently Dr. Philippon lets people view the surgery - both the fellows and the PTs on occassion. At the end of a labrum reconstruction, he forcibly attempts to distract the femur from the hip socket at various angles in order to make sure the new labrum has created the suction seal he wanted. The femur does not come out. I believe everyone's confidence that my hip is not loose is based on this fact. I think the looseness I'm feeling is a looseness in the joint capsule, and I am hopefull that this will tighten with time and with the reactivation/strengthening of the muscles. In any event, knowing that my femur is secure in the socket is reassuring - I don't have the feeling of the bone clunking around in the socket as I did before. I am so glad I chose to do this surgery with Dr. Philippon. I feel that I'm in very good hands.

Today I could go to the Pool to start aquatic therapy - which they have every tuesday and thursday. Today's conflicts with my PT, so I'm going to go to PT instead. Maybe thursday I'll go to the pool. I have some fear of the pool - only because that was the first place where my hip subluxed after my first surgery - 10 days post op. So, that's a little hurdle I need to make it over.

We originally were planning to go home this Friday - me back to SF and my parents back to LA. But, we've decided to stay another 6 days - mostly because I can't go back to work at this point anyways, and I also wouldn't be able to do most of this on my own. It is so important to me that I comply with all of their instructions as much as possible to do the most I can do to make a full recovery.

Most of the restrictions are lifted at week three - including the despised bolster. At that point, I can sleep however I want! that will be lovely.

Til next time...
Virginia

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